Well I created this blog a while ago and never did much with it. I never really felt that I had much to talk about. My mother had just passed away and I had just gotten married. My heart and mind were mixing signals. Happy one minute and sobbing uncontrollably the next. I felt too vulnerable to wear my heart on my sleeve and bare all on a blog. Well things have changed.
I have slowly begun the healing process. I will never be ok with the fact that my mother isn't here. However, I know that I still have a life to live and I need to live it to its fullest. Which brings me to an announcement to anyone that happens upon this little blog....
I'M GONNA BE A MAMA! My new life has just begun!
Yep, after 2 years of trying my husband and I have been blessed with a healthy pregnancy. We are having a girl, named Audrey Jeane! She is due on March 17 2010.
I feel like I have sprung to life again! I feel like i am the first flower to pop through the melting snow! Damn that was bad, lol. I do though, I feel that way. I am awake and ready to take on the world again. My daughter and my husband are my life and my drive.
It sure does feel good. Everything is going well with the pregnancy. I am 6 months in and I am doing great! I have quite a huge belly. I don't know if I am going to give birth to a baby or a litter of puppies. I mean seriously, I am bigger than a river barge..lol.
Being that this is my first pregnancy, you'd think that I would be nervous and paranoid about EVERYTHING! But I'm not. Believe it or not I am not scared one bit. You know why? Education....research, reading and not listening to any of my friends.
I have been reading a lot of books about pregnancy and eating right during pregnancy. Arming myself with knowledge has been my best defense against the barrage of old wives tales that keep coming at me. I can not even begin to explain to you the level of insanity that occurs with some women when they talk about pregnancy and childbirth.
I have been keeping my friends and family updated on my Facebook. Whenever I post a new belly bump photo or change my status update to "wow, heartburn sucks", I instantly get inundated with weird comments. "Are you sure you're not having twins?", "Heartburn means that your baby is going to be born with a lot of hair", and my personal favorite, "If you carry high its a girl", or is it "if you carry low its a girl"?
It is amazing how peoples actual experiences turn into fractured fairy tales. I was also told that once that once I become a mother I will become a know it all as well. Really? Is that true?? Nope, not gonna happen. I know that I don't know it all and that I never will. However I will keep reading and educating myself so I never fall victim to scary stories from self proclaimed know it alls ;)
Wow, I sure did blob my heart out tonight. I will do this more. It feels good.
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